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18 January 2011 @ 12:02 pm
If anyone still checks this - Tumblr is epic win over LJ.

18 April 2010 @ 05:07 pm

Credit for this beautiful Kaylee layout goes to janine42584

Credit for the banner goes to barrencanvas

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I only friend lock some stuff. It's mostly because I don't want certain people reading it! Add me and I almost certainly add you back, and it's nice to comment why out of courtesy.
Current Mood: artisticartistic
Current Music: Village of the Doomed ~ Chris Vrenna
10 July 2009 @ 09:59 pm
This made my day XD
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10 July 2009 @ 09:55 pm
I past my first year XD yay!

time to celebrate with a piercing :)
22 June 2009 @ 07:23 pm
I have twitter. Oh the joy.

Current Location: London
Current Mood: contemplativecontemplative
Current Music: Running, please wait...
27 December 2008 @ 04:34 pm
Video Game Library

Idea slightly stolen from el_dangeroso_xp's deviantart.



Half-Life + Half-Life Source and expansion packs
Half-Life 2 + source
Halo 2


Blue Dragon
Lost Odyssey


Chocobo Racing
Parasite Eve I


Dark Cloud
Dark Chronicle
Deus Ex
Dirge Of Cerberus
Disgaea Hour of Darkness
Disgaea 2: Cursed Memories
God Of War
God Of War II
The Legend of Spyro: The Eternal Night
Naruto Ultimate Ninja
Naruto Ultimate Ninja 2
Naruto Uzumaki Chronicles
Onimusha: Dawn of Dreams
Onimusha: Warlords
Ratchet And Clank 3
Rogue Galaxy
Tekken 5
Shadow of Memories
Shin Megami Tensei: Devil Summoner - Kuzunoha Raido vs the Soulless Army
Shin Megami Tensei: Digital Devil Saga
Shin Megami Tensei: Digital Devil Saga 2
Suikoden IV
Suikoden V
Valkyrie Profile II: Silmeria


The Darkness
Final Fantasy XIII (maybe?)
Heavenly Sword
Tomb Raider Underworld
Uncharted: Drakes Fortune
Resistance 2



American McGee's Alice
Halo: Combat Evolved


Alone In The Dark
Bust-A-Move 2
Crash Bandicoot
Crash Bandicoot 3: Warped
Crash Team Racing
Crash Bash
Dino Crisis
Final Fantasy VII
Final Fantasy VIII
Final Fantasy IX
Final Fantasy Origins
Parasite Eve
Resident Evil 3: Nemesis
Spyro The Dragon
Spyro 2: Gateway To Glimmer
Spyro 3: Year Of The Dragon
Syphon Filter 3
Tekken 3
Tomb Raider II
Tomb Raider III
Tomb Raider IV: The Last Revelation
Tomb Raider Chronicles
Vagrant Story


Buffy The Vampire Slayer: Chaos Bleeds
Dead or Alive 2
Devil May Cry
Devil May Cry 2
Devil May Cry 3: Dantes Awakening Special Edition
Dragon Quest VIII: The Journey Of The Cursed King
Final Fantasy X
Final Fantasy X-2
Final Fantasy XII
Haven: Call Of The King
Jak and Daxter: The Precursor Legacy
Jak II: Renegade
Kingdom Hearts
Kingdom Hearts II
The Legend of Spyro: A New Beginning
Lego Star Wars: The Video Game
Lego Star Wars II: The Original Trilogy
Maximo: Army Of Zin
Onimusha 2
Onimusha 3
Prince Of Persia: The Sands Of Time
Prince Of Persia: The Two Thrones
Prince Of Persia: Warrior Within
Quake III: Revolution
Ratchet and Clank
Ratchet and Clank 2: Locked and Loaded
Ratchet Gladiator
Resident Evil 4
Shadow Hearts
Shadow Hearts: Covenant
Shadow Hearts: A New World
Shadow Of The Colossus
Shin Megami Tensei: Lucifer's Call
Silent Hill 2 - Director's Cut
Silent Hill 3
Silent Hill 4: The Room
Sonic Mega Collection Plus
Soul Caliber III
Spyro: Enter the Dragonfly
Spyro: A Hero's Tail
Star Ocean: Till The End Of Time
Tekken Tag Tournament
Tekken 4
Tenchu: Wrath of Heaven
Timesplitters 2
Tomb Raider The Angel of Darkness
Tomb Raider Legend
Tomb Raider Anniversary
Xenosaga: Episode II


Assassins Creed
The Orange Box
Ratchet and Clank: Tools of Destruction (Japanese Version)
Metal Gear Solid 4: Guns of the Patriots
Little Big Planet
Ninja Gaiden Sigma
Resistance Fall Of Man
Fallout 3
Mirrora Edge
Star Wars: The Force Unleashed
Linger in Shadows

Metal gear Solid: Portable Ops
Loco Roco
God Of War: Chains of Olympus
Ratchet and Clank: Size Matters
Valkyrie Chronicles
Crisis Core

Brain Training
Final Fantasy III
More Brain Training
New Super Mario Bros
Super Mario 64 DS
Chocobo Tales
Final Fantasy IV (Japanese Version)
Some Kanji Game I can't read the title of...

This list would be HIGHLY amusing if I put a marker by the games I have finished.... or even started ^_^

I don't like MGS4.

I may actually die if I don't get something new and Valve-some soon. I played Half-Life 2 on all difficulty settings, and even went back to play the original. Now I'm gonna play HL2 with commentary. Then I might buy the PC version so I can play Blue Shift and Opposing Force. Then I might just write a bunch of fanfic. This is what I am avoiding. I mean I even looked up how much crowbars are on ebay today.

Btw I'm not saying that Halo sucks persay, I'm just saying Half-Life is a lot better :)

Also, Halo sucks.
14 September 2008 @ 10:34 pm
I have been drawing tattoos on myself in black marker to test out how they'd feel.... hopefully real ones won't smudge in the bath.

Also, this is probably the most heavenly electrical appliance in the world. I know I bitch a lot about movies where girls are given make-overs, and this basically amounts to straightening their hair... but I got so sick of seeing photos of my hair sticking out further than it's length >_< When I sleep on it afters it straightened it kinks inwardly in a kind of Rachel-from-friends-Series-one and it looks very cute :)

I move into uni tomorrow :D I'm gonna hang out with some of my friends from last year which is awesome and makes me feel less terrified about everything.
Current Mood: excitedexcited
Current Music: Dr. Horrible Cast - 11 Perfect Story | Scrobbled by Last.fm
14 September 2008 @ 01:07 am
I am mostly pondering this here so I can come back and look at it and make sure I am not going insane :)

I have been thinking for ages about getting a tattoo. There's part of me that thinks my body is a temple and I shouldn't fuck with it, but I also think that a) tattoos are really neat and can be very artistic and b) if I did do it it I'd want something that was a reminder of my values or something that's important to me - to have it around you all the time physically is rather lovely.

I'd want something quick subtle and small, and not somewhere prominent on my body.

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Ona completely different note, I can't wait to see Dollhouse!
Current Mood: artisticartistic
Current Music: Dr. Horrible Cast - 02 Laundry Day | Scrobbled by Last.fm
12 September 2008 @ 04:13 am
Going back to uni is sooooo miniscule in comparison to my fan girlieness over Hellboy II atm.

This would be because although I am nearly 20 my life is still dictated by blonde alpha male types.Collapse )
Current Music: Kelly Bailey - CP Violation (Remix) | Scrobbled by Last.fm
12 September 2008 @ 04:02 am
New layout because this one is of the awesome and might actually encourage me to post more often :) the other one was lovely but I don't play American McGees Alice a whole lot atm and it had some bugs in the coding I think and you couldnt view past entries easily. Also Kaylee is much cuter and less emo :D

Although I reaaaly wish I had a Half-Life/ Portal layout...
12 September 2008 @ 02:31 am
An awesome friend sent me this.

If it is true then I hope they don't botch it up and play him like they did in the movie. Everytime I listen to him in Caedroia I just giggle like a little school girl <3
06 September 2008 @ 07:48 pm

Some of my journal isn't appearing.


This would be ok if I could just work out whats wrong with the code, but making the code work in the first place was like 4 hours of trial and error for me....

Also, I don't have a Valve or Firefly related icon. Maybe I should ditch the Naruto one.
19 August 2008 @ 04:18 pm
Yay :D I have housing for next term! I even packed my clothes yesterday (the agreement with myself was that they all had to fit in one suitcase ^_^) and my application for a loan should be coming this week.
04 August 2008 @ 07:56 pm
13 July 2008 @ 10:13 pm
I knew I missed something out!

Let me just take this opportunity to plug with all my heart and soul the amazing TV program Firefly, and it's follow-up movie Serenity. If you're not familiar with this franchise and it's struggle, it's not hard to find out with a little internet trawl. I remember first reading about Firefly in SFX when I was a big Buffy fan (the show is by Buffy and Angel creator, and one of my gods, Joss Whedon). I dismissed it initially as it was described as a sci-fi Western, which sounds terrible... In an attempt not to gush for 10 paragraphs, Firefly has a lot of the good points of Buffy/ Angel, and of many current sci-fi series, but few of the bad points :) My brother recommended Firefly to me last month and I am SO glad I watched it. It was such a nice alternative now that Doctor Who has ended (and also sucked...).

It's amazing the amount of work fans have put in the support Firefly, and it's so sad that more hasn't come of it (although getting the movie was amazing!).

As a new fan to the series, please watch it :) buy the movie :) if they commissioned another series I would be over the moon! I was sad when Angel was cancelled (for a reality Tv program no less!!!) but at least it ran for 5 seasons! Firefly ran for 1!! Joss had so much more to tell, so much more to do with that show.

Yeah, there's more to life than TV, and honestly, I barely watch Tv normally. But Firefly was a pretty amazing show. Continuing in Joss' vein of comedy, drama, powerful women, and social insight. It would suck less if I thought it was canceled for a good reason, but it was cancelled because Fox want a cheap show that would make money. Firefly was an intelligent, entertaining, insightful program and should not have been cancelled. If we're going to have such shitty TV can we at least keep the good programs in amongst all the crap ones?

Like I said, I don't watch TV, so it doesn't bother me so much other than the principle of it... but I just want to recommend it as a really good watch to everyone, and I think it's important I point out how much it sucks that it was cancelled.
Current Music: Withnail & I soundtrack
13 July 2008 @ 09:50 pm
Half-Life 2 Episode 2 = teh awesome :) Now I'm going to sit here and have a tantrum until episode 3 comes out ^_^

Random life events:

♥ I might be going to India
♥ This is dependent on me getting money I am owed (long story)
♥ I got refused student housing
♥ this seems very unfair after they promised me a new start at uni, and I couldn't help missing the deadline as it was the uni that wanted an application from me, and they then took a while deciding
♥ so I'm going to phone/ email people in a restrained/ polite/ angry English way using phrases like "this is unacceptable" and "regrettably I must inform you" ^_^
♥ did I mention Zhongjie moved out? Not in a breaking up kind of way, I just needed the space
♥ Japan was awesome
♥ my parents NEED to split up
♥ my chocobo plush came :D
♥ I have a package waiting at the post office - I hope it is my chocobo tshirt :D
♥ I have a very developed chocobo obsession at the moment
this website is made of all kinds of awesome
Current Music: Ring A Ding Ding ~ Brakes
31 May 2008 @ 05:06 am
I am totally in Japan. Check out facebook for many many photos :)
Current Mood: tiredtired
10 May 2008 @ 08:50 pm
I completed Portal ^_^ it is awesome.

I'm also having a relapse of the almightly sleeping disease where I wake up at 4pm and can't fall asleep until 7/8am.

Maybe the two things are connected?

I am also having babies over sorting out my student loan/ accomadation/ life.
06 May 2008 @ 09:25 pm
The two minutes I manage to pry myself away from my PS3 to write that last entry prompted me to announce that I got back into Uni :D yay! That was quite important news I forgot... *blush*
06 May 2008 @ 09:25 pm
The Orange Box came.

Must play constantly.

Never leave house again.
06 May 2008 @ 12:57 am
I keep cutting off bits of my hair. It's gone really dry since the "oh I'm a brunette... oh wait let's get out the bleach... oh wait I'll go red-head for a bit..". I'm sure it's getting unnerved by the spare bleach satchet I still have in my bathroom.

Also the back is still blonde I only noticed last week ^_^ so it'll have to have a another round of dye anyway. Hahaha.

Ummmmmmmmmmm also I may have bought this. And I ordered the Orange Box :( it has not come :( maybe because today is bank holidaiz?
04 May 2008 @ 10:07 pm

I have to live there for three years :( at least :(

I just get these images of John Simm as The Master in Doctor Who when he's the prime minister and running around playing Scissor Sisters in the aircraft carrier and making clown faces and zipping up his mouth and shit... that's the closest image I can get in my mind of what's to come.
Can we please have a Half-Life movie and please can Robert Downey Jr be Freeman?



When it comes down to it this is mostly because my ideal man would be some unconventional male nerdy type, with rebellious tendancies. But it also stems back to the fact that both of these men remind me of my A Level English teacher, who I was rrraaather in love with.

BUT if this movie was done right it would be the complete epitomy of awesome, and Robert Downey Jr is at least a good actor. I've seen too many people say Tom Cruise could be Freeman :( And Ed Norton does NOT look like Gordon. Gordon is chiselled.
18 April 2008 @ 09:54 pm
I pledge my soul to the religion that is Buffy.

I got the whole series on DVD a few months ago, and I re-watched it...

Am I seeing something that isn't there, or was this show a) extremely witty and clever b) made coherent social commentary c) promoted all the right things and not the wrong things and d) was insanely funny, but also intensely moving at times?

I watched the seasons in a very funny order something like 5,2,6,4,7,1,3... and thinking about it that would be a very different spin on the way you would view the series. For example, I can see my view of the character of Buffy was very incomplete, having viewed episodes such as The Gift and Chose without the reference of episodes such as Anne and Prophecy Girl. I was also as a result much more pro-Spike than most people, and pro-Tara.

I'm not going to try and get intellectual and de-construct it or anything, because firstly I can't, and secondly I might sound like a twat. At the end of the day it was an action program designed to entertain. But I can't help have so much respect for a show, that at the very least promoted women, and gay people.

Anyone else a Buffy fan? Dicuss....
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Current Mood: tiredtired
Current Music: Misty ~ Gackt
17 April 2008 @ 09:52 pm
I did this to my hair by the wayCollapse )

Yes, which clearly makes me a crazy woman from Mars. blah. blah.
17 April 2008 @ 09:48 pm
The amount that this journal is just like dedicated to random shit is unbelievable believable considering it's me.

I left my job. So my life is now not going to consist of me bitching about working in a shop. I'm gonna return to spending my days planning possible/ non-possible travelling.

Outline of probable plan: 2 weeks in Tokyo with Claire. A few days on my own. 2 Weeks with Zhongjie, take shinkansen through Kansai, to Fukuoka, and then back. A few more days on my own, maybe spend time with SOAS-y peoples. Then 3 weeks with host family. Then come back (boo.).
Current Music: Aiko
01 April 2008 @ 09:13 pm
I applied for this and I think I was successful ^_^

Today was reeeeealleh sunny and nice!

I'm going to the doctor about my restart tomorrow finally.

Things are nice atm :)
14 March 2008 @ 08:07 pm
I NEED to play Half-Life. I NEEEEEEEEED to play it. I HAAAAAAAAAve to. For video game credibility and because Gordon Freeman is hot. And then I can buy the Orange Box and yay and win and fun.

But I also recently got Buffy the complete series on DVD and Doctor Who series 3.

Current Mood: bouncybouncy
Current Music: Requiem ~ Geinoh Yamashirogumi
12 March 2008 @ 09:23 am
OMFG I STILL have not got this fucking restart sorted. I will probably phone the doctor AGAIN today after 4 calls and a letter... I talked to SOAS last week and my application doesn't have to be in for a couple of months. But I wanted to do the keen thing because I think I want to go back to Uni this Septemberrather than next. I'm trying to organise something with my aunt so I can go to Japan for a few months, on my own, without Zhongjie. Hopefully then I'll assimilate something useful. Fuck my job... Quite often I feel like an outsider there. I would hate to blame it on being the oly girl thing, I think it also has to do with the fact that I'm quite self-aware, and that most of the people my age have left to go to another store.

The weekend went ok. It was fun to hang out with my SOAS friends, and it was fun to hang out with Fonzys friends, although both are polar opposites. At SOAS we ate ice-cream and watched Hardo Gai. At Kings we drank, smoked, got high, bitched...

Either way I kind of miss the student thing

Last night I went to this goth night one of my co-workers DJs at. It made me a bit nostalgic, it's the kind of thing I would have loved to be involved in a few years ago, but I was too shy. I was kind of put off the whole goth thing from the vast amount of abuse I recieved at school :P

Maybe photos later, I can't find the cable thing atm :'(
Current Mood: tiredtired
10 March 2008 @ 09:37 pm
Possible interesting observation:

I bought this giant silver cross off ebay, being a hu-age Buffy fan. I wore it to work in a sort of 80s-glam Madonna-ish style fashion. But still, every time I wore it I got comments from members of staff at work. Quite serious comments, such as "This isn't meant to be a funny question, but are you Christian?". Not that I think it's wrong to assume someone may be Christian because they wear a cross, and I certainly don't take it as an insult, but you can detect the wariness in their voices. It's the same kind of tone people use when you might say something a little unconventional regarding a sexual question, and people say "it's ok if you are, but you're not gay are you? You didn't seem like the type!".

I'm not sure where this leaves me, and it's not as if I am of any definite religious conviction, or that I don't believe that some people abuse religion. However, I do believe that many religions have good ideas at their center.

And why is this question, and indeed questions regarding our sexuality, asked in this serious tone? Do people believe that if we answer "yes" then the person they knew is gone, and there's a different one standing in their place? Some religious zealot? Some sexual deviant?

I do believe my sexuality and spirituality are a part of who I am. But if you took them away, I would still be me. They do not remove my personality or the way I would live my life to a huge extent. They are important parts of my life, but I still can't shake the belief that these are not important, fundamental facts that define me. I am not Catherine Eaton-Lee, 19, bisexual female, once Christian, then atheist, now pursuing an interest in the comparisons of monotheistic religious than originated in th middle-east. I'm just me, Cat, who loves her mum and her boyfriend, and wants to widen her mind.

I'm probably wrong. If you told me tomorrow I couldn't be gay then I would be angry. But I suppose just as angry if you told me I couldn't be straight. I guess I would be angry from the point of view of my freedom being taken from me.

Maybe that's it, as long as I have the freedom to express myself, the constructs of gender, sexuality, religion, class, ethnicity are not so important. We can express ourselves via these constructs, but they are not always helpful, especially when people react as I have described above. I wouldn't want anyone to feel their opinion of me has largely changed if I told them I was gay or religious, except that they might have respect for my honesty and open-mindedness.

About a month ago I had an idea, which I can't remember if I discussed here. Because of the reaction surrounding my cross I would love to take it a step further. I would love to wear a hijab in public, just to see the reaction. Not as an attempt to scare people, or provoke them. Simply walk down the street and observe how I am observed. I think we take it for granted somehow that people's reactions are all around us. We just become blind to the invisible reaction of seeing someone we percieve as "normal". I certainly feel I become invisible sometimes because I look "normal" for where I live. If I wore something that indicated otherwise I know the reaction could be different.

I would not want to promote any kind of negative image of Islam, indeed I would like to promote the opposite, but it would be interesting to see, e.g. in job interviews or being served in shops the way people reacted.

Zhongjie said I was asking for trouble, and people would only stare because I was Muslim and white. I tried to explain it further to him, that I wished to understand another's viewpoint, and I wouldn't act any different from normal otherwise. That I knew many non-Arab Muslims. That I could empathise with the choice to wear a hijab, that he could never understand what it is like to be eyed up like a piece of meat on the street by strangers even if you're not wearing anything particularly revealing. I wanted to see if I would find solice in wearing a headscarf, or whether it would make me feel more afraid, because of islamaphobia and racism. He seemed to understand.

It's not as if I will do it, the idea satisfies me enough, but I think all of this is interesting, and worth exploration. I'm still very unsure where I stand in all of this. I know that I have a strong desire to learn about religion, and a hatred of oppression and discrimination... but religion sometimes causes these things. I also believe that people cause oppression and discrimination, rather than religion itself. I find peoples reactions interesting towards these sort of things, because it is so often negative, yet these people have never personally faced oppression because of religion. They must just be speculating about something they have read or heard. Perhaps I am not one to judge, and perhaps their intent is honorable, but they are just not sure what to expect. The thing is, all they should be expecting, as far as myself is concerned, is just me, plain ole me, because that is all I am, and it is all I can give.
07 March 2008 @ 11:28 pm
I Love You But I've Chosen Darkness either have a really cool name, or a really bad name. either way I really like their music, so it doesn't really matter.

I'm going to London tomorrow to see my friends (or to assess how many I still have). Hopefully it will cheer me up?
06 March 2008 @ 11:42 pm
Although I love reading, it's one of things I never really do properly. I either don't have time to get into a book because of work/ school or I start too many books at once. I'm still doing to latter to an extent atm but there's one book that's had me riveted. It's called I am Charlotte Simmons by Tom Wolfe. My English teacher (the one who wasn't the one that looked at a bit like David Tennant :( ) recommended it to me when we studied satire. She was American and it was a satire on American student life. When we studied a small passage it seemed a bit like an intellectualised version of American Pie. What also put me off is that with most satire, they often mock emotion/ empathy rather than embrace it, or at least use it as a satirical device. However, this books heroine really touched me. It made me think a lot about my own life, especially about my secondary school years/ problems, and made me reflect on my choice to leave uni.

It touched me so much I actually felt upset for a few days, especially when the heroine suffers.

I won't say anymore, but I do recommend it, because although it is a bit long it is very easy, and enjoyable reading.

The teacher who recommended it to me wasn't my favorite teacher, but I wish I could thank her now.
23 February 2008 @ 12:25 am
I watched Heathers yesterday which reminded me that it is possible one of the best movies evar. Maybe because this is because I am a little bit fucked up.

In other news my soul was stolen by Dragon Quest. I'm 40+ hours and only about half way through.

Recently has been funny because my mum got all excited about her DS Lite last month, and she went "crazy" this week and bought herself an Ipod. It's very sweet to watch her discover the 21st centuary finally :) SHe plays the DS on the way to work, and the Ipod on the way back.

Valentine's Day was really good, and stuff has generally better with us recently. Even with two Uni rejections for Zhonje stuff is ok, and we're excited about living together next year. He chose the most perfect restaurant and I just felt really pretty because I wore this super fandabby skirt I got from ebay. heh. Our one year anniversay we spent at this restaurant we used to go to a lot before we were going out. It's like where everyone used to go last year, and it was nice to revisit somewhere from "the past" so to speak.

My work is a bit rubbish atm. I finally got set hours, but I didn't get to see them until a couple of days ago, and I already planned to go to Durham from tomorrow until Monday. This only clashes with work on the Monday, but they're still being a bit iffy. I didn't get to see my manager yesterday so I had to tell him by word of mouth that I wasn't going to turn up. I'm worried when I go in Tuesday there'll be an awkward/ anger momemt.... This seems unfair with the retrospect that I've done like 50+ hours unpaid overtime.

I was meant to visit my friends from Uni today, but they didn't seem to bothered so I decided not to go in the end. Yes, pinnacle of maturity I am. Maybe next time if I contact them better and arrange something it will work out. It just made me a bit depressed. I guess they have school work and I don't.

I got sort of offered some modelling. Zhongjie said he thought I'd be really good, but I guess he has to say that! ^_^ It is a dilema as I like art type stuff and burlesque and things like that, but not cunty fashion modelling. I am going to think about it. Some extra momey would be nice!

Zomg Ricky Gervias used to be really hot in the 80s I discovered today!
Current Mood: random
Current Music: She Drives The Big Car ~ David Bowie
10 February 2008 @ 12:21 am
Oh yeah, I'm pissed off at my work atm. They called me up at like 11pm last night and left a message on my voicemail asking for me to work today (Saturday). I wouldn't have minded if they had scheduled this in in the original rota, but it seems as if they don't ring me up because people call in sick or anything, just because they don't do the rota properly. It was a bit irresponsible of me but I ignored the call and didn't contact them. I'll say I lost my phone yesterday or something. I just feel like they take advantage of me sometimes. Generally I like my work though. I just want to be able to plan my life without having to worry that they'll call me up at the last minute.
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Current Mood: annoyedannoyed
10 February 2008 @ 12:05 am
I am feeling better after my slight freak-out on Thursday. I was missing SOAS and scared that I would lose Zhongjie if I didn't go back to Uni in September.

Anyway, we had a really nice chat last night. Unfortunately, Zhongjie didn't get into one of his unis, although it was the only non-London one. I am slightly pleased about that in a selfish way. If he had gone there I feel it's likely we would not have stayed together.

I was still worried that if I stayed at home for next year while he was at Uni in London things might still have been hard. But I do feel that I need more time before I go back. But I'm worried that I'll lose touch with my uni friends.

Zhongjie proposed a really good idea. An idea that even my mum agreed too ^_^ Which, bless her, is rare for something we propose to her. If Zhongjie gets into uni he'll rent private accommodation, i.e. a small flat in London (it's suprising how cheap this can be if you know where to look) and I'll live with him. I'll leave my current job and find somewhere similar in London, e.g. like in Tottenham Court Road. I'll be earning at London rates so I'll be able to afford the rent and living expenses. I can visit my friends from uni too! It'd be a great way to acclimatise back into my London life without the problems I had before. I could go back to uni the next year, live in the same flat with Zhongjie, having earned some money.

Even if Zhongje doesn't go to uni this September we think we might do this anyway and both work. I love my mum, but living at home is stressful and I'm too old really to be leading this life. I need the support for the moment after the problems I had at uni, but I know I need to take responsibility. I want too.
Current Location: PS3 <3
Current Mood: tiredtired
07 February 2008 @ 08:43 pm
I watched this really awesome film the other day with my mum. Zhongjie was meant to pick us up and take us to meet my brother in Gloucester. My brother never called to arrange the meet up, and Zhongjie forgot to pick us up. So in honor of our despair at the male sex we ate Galaxy chocolate and watched Kiss Kiss Bang Bang with Val Kilmer and Robert Downey Jr. I haven't seen anything with Val Kilmer in since Willow, so seeing him playing a fat, gay, sardonic cop was a bit of a change. I really like Robert Downey Jr because he always plays slightly unhinged geeky people, which I find attractive in a strange way...

I've been thinking a lot recently. One thing that is very hard to decide is whether to apply for my uni restart for this year or the next. I was so sure that I would apply for next year... but now I'm a bit shaken, as I suddenly felt excited about going back in September. I liked many aspects of student life!

I had a great review at work today though. I like all the staff and they seem to like me. My manager really liked a suggestion I made today about the store and said he'd try and get it implemented.

One thing I do know is that I'm happy with my uni course :) I might want to change to joint degree still, and I like so many other subjects too, but I know in my heart I could still easily study Japanese for 4 years. I miss my teachers too.

But the thing is I still don't know what's happening with Zhongjie. I can't wait to make my decision based on whether he gets into London or not.... he might not get in anywhere in which case I'd want to be here with him. He might only get into a non-London uni. He is so important to me.
Current Mood: tiredtired
05 February 2008 @ 10:11 pm
I think someone needs to to ban me from ebay....

Buying clothes is one thing. Buying chocolates that I could walk down the road to get, but buy on ebay and pay postage so they arrive at my door is not ok.
01 February 2008 @ 03:40 pm
Stolen from neverender

Apparantly my grandmother is a punk rocker...Collapse )
Current Mood: boredbored
Current Music: Neighborhood #1 (Tunnels) ~ The Arcade Fire
01 February 2008 @ 02:34 pm
I finally rang both my current and previous doctor's about evidence for my restart at SOAS. I don't know why I find telephone calls so terrifing.

Now I just have to wait for them to reply, hopefully send me my evidence and then maybe all my uni crap will be close to being sorted out. The only decision I have to make now is whether to go back this year or next, I have the option of applying for either. Going back later has obvious benefits, more time to prepare, mature, travel, earn money etc. But going back sooner would mean I'm more likely to stay in touch with my uni friends, and if Zhongjie gets into Uni this year I could live with him.

And obviously this has nothing to do with Assassin's Creed, but I've got really obsessed with the middle east again ^_^

I know it"s a bit bomb-y but can I go here please...Collapse )

Today is my mums day off work, and many of my ebay things came in the post. This was a fun situation to get out of.
Current Mood: hyperhyper
Current Music: Bitter Sweet Symphony ~ The Verve
29 January 2008 @ 08:21 pm
We kind of sell preowned DVDs at work, but the thing is, you get so little trade in value for them that no one really bothers to bring 'em in. However, some guy who's going to join the new Gamestation the other side of town had like MANY DVDs, and we agreed to buy them straight off him for the store selling price, which is like £1 as opposed to £0.10....

I got every season of Buffy on DVD, every season of Red Dwarf (apart from series VII), Napoleon Dynamite, Nightmare on Elm Street the ultimate collectors edition, Napoloeon Dynamite and Resident Evil Apocalyse for £40. So I am a very happy girl.

I also bought Legend the DVD on ebay in a fit of a Tim Curry obsession.

I got obsessed with ebay:

Many things I am bidding on....Collapse )
Current Mood: sillysilly
Current Music: Meds ~ Placebo
16 January 2008 @ 05:12 pm
I'm currently on the train coming back from London. Last week I had an appointment with my head of department, but he never showed up. So I had to go in today, which was mildly irritating as this was my first day off for over a week.

I saw my grammar teacher, Kashiwagi-sensei, who I also saw last week. She's been really kind to me, and supportive. My last words to me were "keep in touch"!

I have to make a case to the university if I want a restart for this year. The problem is, firstly I'd rather come back in a year and a half, and secondly, I'm not sure how successful my case will be. Although I've been ill and depressed, I've got no medical proof of this. And wanting a year out because I missed a gap year the first time round is kind of a lame excuse!

I'm glad I get the chance for one though, and if all else fails it seems like re-application wouldn't be impossible, as my grades are still good enough for SOAS even though the requirements have been increased.

My job is going ok...

Sometimes they are idiots and a bit disorganised, for instance changing the rota and not telling me and then wondering why I'm late ^_^ However, there are some really cool people there, and at least at the end of the day I can go home and chill out.

My PS3 came yesterday! How I managed to hide it from my mum is amazing. I was kind of panicking initially cuz I hooked it up and just zilch happened.... then Zhongjie was clever and re-set the whole thing and now it works lovely. You can just tell that it's awesome by looking at it. It looks and feels like such a high quality piece of machinery. everyone at work was trying to convince me to get a 360, but I'm happy with my decision.
Current Music: If I Apologised ~ Iain Ballamy
13 January 2008 @ 01:36 am
hahahahahaha I painted my nails "hello sailor" blue and they look sooooooo VERY.....
Things I will ask from my parents for Christmas but they will get me books instead.... I know this fo sho

- PS3 (60/80 ver.)
- an Mp3 player than fucking works (I ordered one on amazon like 3 months ago and they are dicking me over about it)
- Joan Greenwood Alice in Wonderland audio
- many cats
- Gothiloli clothes
- plane tickets to somewhere cool to go traveling in the summer (Cambodia, India, Egypt, China, Korea, Japan, Cuba etc. please)
13 December 2007 @ 04:50 am
I meant to make a post on this ages ago. I got a Christmas temp job at Gamestation! Yay!

I find it rather amusing how I've tried to get temp jobs for years in places like NL, Topshop and Primark, but I never even get called for an interview. I had the most awesome interview at Gamestation and got called back the next day...

I got an offer from Faith as well, but I'm kind of ignoring them because I promised I'd take the job, but I don't really want it. I'm the only girl at Gamestation, which has its drawbacks, but also many benefits. All the people there are really cool, and the managers seem to think I do my job properly, which is comforting. I'm hoping to get a transfer next term to a store in London as well. It's so nice having a job you enjoy!

In other news

- I bought this hair stuff that makes my hair really curly
- I fancy an ugly guy at Uni mainly because he's obnoxious to me
- I don't see Zhongjie enough :(
- I have finally made some friends at SOAS!
- They are awesome
- I go shopping way too much between lectures
- I want to transfer to a joint degree with anthropology
- I am stressed most of the time
Current Mood: tiredtired
Current Music: Devil May Cry I Soundtrack
15 November 2007 @ 11:15 pm
Yes I actually am bidding on this.

I discovered ebay, and it was good. Althoughj its getting ridiculously expensive and its only 30ml - I might give up soon and buy the 100ml version in Boots. N I have tested the fragrance, yes I am just buying it because it's L.A.M.B., and as my flatmate Nick pointed out to me yesterday, this proves marketing is everything. I'd like to point out that Gwen Stefani has great taste which I trust, and it is nothing to do with the shiny adverts.

Other ways I am wasting away my uni life:

Games I want:

All the spyro games for ps2 that are now well cheap on amazon
Dragon Quest
Final Fantasy XII is now £9.99 on play.com
Resident Evil 4 also looks ok...

I found out through necessary research that David Bowie is called デビッド ボウイ in Japanese. I'm so glad that £3000 worth of Japanese classes is being put to good use.

Clothes I need

I saw really fit jeans in New Look in a magazine but that aren't actually in the shop. They're high waisted skinny jeans with a sort of worn, vinyl-y look to them. They sound rubbish but Angelina Jolie would blatantly wear them.
I want more waist coats. They have these in NL.
Urban Outfitters skinny jeans. In pink?
Hats. They cover my skanky roots.
Some heels I can walk to campus in without my feet bleeding.

This presents a problem as all the money I save from my loan can be spent on backpacking in Japan. Living there will be relatively cheap, but flights won't be. I'm thinking maybe a month or so, 3 weeks in Kansai, 1 week in Tokyo/ Chiba. Maybe go to China as well?
Current Mood: busybusy
Current Music: Umberella ~ Rihanna
24 October 2007 @ 12:57 pm
This could almost be funny. But it's not.
Current Music: Till Victory ~ Patti Smith
24 August 2007 @ 06:05 pm
It is massive and cute and scary and things lol.

China was cool though.

Back on the 20th and then off to Uni ^_^
17 August 2007 @ 03:48 pm
This years results day was almost the opposite in every way from last years. Last year I went in on my own, nervous as hell, but expecting great results as I worked so hard. I ended up crying in park crescent, and Dan found me and walked me home.
This year, I was more worried about Zhongjies results than mine. We got his first (he looked like he'd been sentenced to death and he opened them ^_^ ) and low and behold, 3 As and a B <3 He can become a doctor now!

I guess I wasn't too worried this year, I did work hard and my offer is only BBB. But I really wasn't expecting 3 As.. 2Bs and an A maybe. So I was pretty happy! Got my confirmation letter from SOAS, got my accomodation, and I'm off to China on Monday!

It was cute cuz my mum cried and told Zhongjie she loved him and was proud of him and stuff. And she actually seemed proud of me for once.

Also I got my Studio Ghibli tickets yesterday, which was ditto with the awesomeness!
Current Mood: happyhappy
Current Music: Real Emotion ~FFX-2 Mix~ ~ Koda Kumi
15 August 2007 @ 10:13 pm
I'm going to University in September, where I can expand my mind, meet amazing people, get contacts for amazing jobs, learning new sports and skills. I'll become elligible to vote, I'll control my own finance, be able to voice my opinions, even get them published if I work hard enough.

Yet all I can think about it the fact that Polysics tour London all the time <3

"All the time" being more often that they do where I currently live. Which has been twice. And I was away both times. FuckmeIlovethem.

Also fucking Patrick fucking Wolf is playing fucking Reading Festival and I'm not fucking going for the first time EVAR. It's like he's AVOIDING ME.

And I also can't go to Truck because it's been reschedualled for September. Boooo no Electric Soft Parade :(

This would all be forgiven if I could go to one Polysics gig.
09 August 2007 @ 07:40 pm
I have been trying to remember what this was for years. I watched it when I was about 5 or 6 and then my mum gave it away or something. I literally watched it everyday, and I can still remember bits of it now. I finally found it again! I'm gonna keep an eye out for copies when I go to China <3