Man is born free, and everywhere he is in chains.

senna.matronic@gmail.com — Tue, 21 Jul 2009 17:12:33 GMT

Updates have been rather spardoic as of late... doing a degree suprisingly takes up time. I'm in the future, especially on my year abroad in Japan, I can have regular updates.

For the moment, I just moved house:

By moved house, I do of course mean I moved from my closet flat in central to London to a big flat slightly further out :p .....

I have no internet in the house yet, but when I do YAYZ XD

senna.matronic@gmail.com — Fri, 10 Jul 2009 21:03:06 GMT

This made my day XD

senna.matronic@gmail.com — Fri, 10 Jul 2009 20:57:01 GMT

I past my first year XD yay!

time to celebrate with a piercing :)

senna.matronic@gmail.com — Mon, 22 Jun 2009 18:24:27 GMT

I have twitter. Oh the joy.

http://twitter.com/_catasaurus_

senna.matronic@gmail.com — Sun, 14 Sep 2008 21:34:40 GMT

I have been drawing tattoos on myself in black marker to test out how they'd feel.... hopefully real ones won't smudge in the bath.

Also, this is probably the most heavenly electrical appliance in the world. I know I bitch a lot about movies where girls are given make-overs, and this basically amounts to straightening their hair... but I got so sick of seeing photos of my hair sticking out further than it's length >_< When I sleep on it afters it straightened it kinks inwardly in a kind of Rachel-from-friends-Series-one and it looks very cute :)

I move into uni tomorrow :D I'm gonna hang out with some of my friends from last year which is awesome and makes me feel less terrified about everything.

senna.matronic@gmail.com — Sun, 14 Sep 2008 00:32:11 GMT

I am mostly pondering this here so I can come back and look at it and make sure I am not going insane :)

I have been thinking for ages about getting a tattoo. There's part of me that thinks my body is a temple and I shouldn't fuck with it, but I also think that a) tattoos are really neat and can be very artistic and b) if I did do it it I'd want something that was a reminder of my values or something that's important to me - to have it around you all the time physically is rather lovely.

I'd want something quick subtle and small, and not somewhere prominent on my body.

I have thought about this for ages to make sure I didn't pick something on the spur of the moment that was a fad (so I didn't y'know get Nathan Fillions face tattooed across my chest or something...) or something that was embarassing. I also wouldn't want something that represented something too political or specific about my values in case that changed.

I thought for ages about something that represented how I feel about the world, that's also fun, and pretty and I kept coming back to the auryn from The Neverending Story. This has been my favourite book since I was about 6, so it's safe to say it's not a fad. As I've become older I seen more and more the layers in that book, how it explores human selfishness and desire and imagination and destruction, and I will never be able to read it too many times. The auryn is almost like a ying yang, but I guess I find the ying yang too (literally!) back and white, and even misogynistic. There's a line in NES that respresents the dark side of auryn that really resonantes with me:

Things just repeat. Day and night, summer and winter. The world is empty and aimless. Everything circles arond. Whatever starts up must pass away, whatever is born must die. It all cancels out, good and bad, beautiful and ugly.

If you take out the really depressing notion that the world is empty, then I find this idea quite philosophical and uplifting. Almost buddhist.

Anyway, I saw a beautiful version of auryn done with dragons instead of snakes. And I love dragons... but I love the original. Anyway this is all still speculative.

The second one I thought of recently was the line Man is born free from Rousseaus Social Contract, which is a really important quote to me. I think text tattoos look better than huge ornate designs. Along these lines, I also thought about a line from Blakes Auguries of Innocence - To see a world in a grain of sand.

This is really speculative now, but I thought the face of the cheshire cat by John Tenniel would be cute, but it would require a very ecent tattoist to emulate the exact drawing, or it'd look bad. I thought for ages about getting the kanji neko (cat in japanese) but kanji tattoos are kind of lame. I'd love a gormenghast tattoo of some description, but I don't know how that would work....

This has all been in my head for ages and I wouldn't want to rush into it. I'm gonna talk with some friends and do more thinking. Maybe try and design a tattoo myself because that would be nice and I used to be ok at art :) I feel like I really want a tattoo, I just need to find the right design, and until I do I wouldn't get anything done... I feel like the right tattoo is just slightly eluding my imagination! I mean maybe I'm overcomplicating this and I should just get a cat or a heart or a star, something cute like that :)

If I did get one while I'm on London this place in Soho looks good.

Ona completely different note, I can't wait to see Dollhouse!

senna.matronic@gmail.com — Fri, 12 Sep 2008 03:28:54 GMT

Going back to uni is sooooo miniscule in comparison to my fan girlieness over Hellboy II atm.

I mean I do feel about 13... because apart from the witty dialogue, the general Del Toro-ness, and all the cats, this is the reason why:

Legolas on crack or what!

senna.matronic@gmail.com — Fri, 12 Sep 2008 03:03:58 GMT

New layout because this one is of the awesome and might actually encourage me to post more often :) the other one was lovely but I don't play American McGees Alice a whole lot atm and it had some bugs in the coding I think and you couldnt view past entries easily. Also Kaylee is much cuter and less emo :D

Although I reaaaly wish I had a Half-Life/ Portal layout...

senna.matronic@gmail.com — Fri, 12 Sep 2008 01:33:08 GMT

An awesome friend sent me this.

If it is true then I hope they don't botch it up and play him like they did in the movie. Everytime I listen to him in Caedroia I just giggle like a little school girl <3

senna.matronic@gmail.com — Sat, 06 Sep 2008 18:50:44 GMT

Um.....

Some of my journal isn't appearing.

Ahhhhhh!

This would be ok if I could just work out whats wrong with the code, but making the code work in the first place was like 4 hours of trial and error for me....

Also, I don't have a Valve or Firefly related icon. Maybe I should ditch the Naruto one.

senna.matronic@gmail.com — Tue, 19 Aug 2008 15:20:18 GMT

Yay :D I have housing for next term! I even packed my clothes yesterday (the agreement with myself was that they all had to fit in one suitcase ^_^) and my application for a loan should be coming this week.

meow :)

senna.matronic@gmail.com — Mon, 04 Aug 2008 23:56:06 GMT

adopt your own virtual pet!

Firefly :D

senna.matronic@gmail.com — Sun, 13 Jul 2008 21:26:38 GMT

I knew I missed something out!

Let me just take this opportunity to plug with all my heart and soul the amazing TV program Firefly, and it's follow-up movie Serenity. If you're not familiar with this franchise and it's struggle, it's not hard to find out with a little internet trawl. I remember first reading about Firefly in SFX when I was a big Buffy fan (the show is by Buffy and Angel creator, and one of my gods, Joss Whedon). I dismissed it initially as it was described as a sci-fi Western, which sounds terrible... In an attempt not to gush for 10 paragraphs, Firefly has a lot of the good points of Buffy/ Angel, and of many current sci-fi series, but few of the bad points :) My brother recommended Firefly to me last month and I am SO glad I watched it. It was such a nice alternative now that Doctor Who has ended (and also sucked...).

It's amazing the amount of work fans have put in the support Firefly, and it's so sad that more hasn't come of it (although getting the movie was amazing!).

As a new fan to the series, please watch it :) buy the movie :) if they commissioned another series I would be over the moon! I was sad when Angel was cancelled (for a reality Tv program no less!!!) but at least it ran for 5 seasons! Firefly ran for 1!! Joss had so much more to tell, so much more to do with that show.

Yeah, there's more to life than TV, and honestly, I barely watch Tv normally. But Firefly was a pretty amazing show. Continuing in Joss' vein of comedy, drama, powerful women, and social insight. It would suck less if I thought it was canceled for a good reason, but it was cancelled because Fox want a cheap show that would make money. Firefly was an intelligent, entertaining, insightful program and should not have been cancelled. If we're going to have such shitty TV can we at least keep the good programs in amongst all the crap ones?

Like I said, I don't watch TV, so it doesn't bother me so much other than the principle of it... but I just want to recommend it as a really good watch to everyone, and I think it's important I point out how much it sucks that it was cancelled.

senna.matronic@gmail.com — Sun, 13 Jul 2008 21:00:09 GMT

Half-Life 2 Episode 2 = teh awesome :) Now I'm going to sit here and have a tantrum until episode 3 comes out ^_^

Random life events:

♥ I might be going to India
♥ This is dependent on me getting money I am owed (long story)
♥ I got refused student housing
♥ this seems very unfair after they promised me a new start at uni, and I couldn't help missing the deadline as it was the uni that wanted an application from me, and they then took a while deciding
♥ so I'm going to phone/ email people in a restrained/ polite/ angry English way using phrases like "this is unacceptable" and "regrettably I must inform you" ^_^
♥ did I mention Zhongjie moved out? Not in a breaking up kind of way, I just needed the space
♥ Japan was awesome
♥ my parents NEED to split up
♥ my chocobo plush came :D
♥ I have a package waiting at the post office - I hope it is my chocobo tshirt :D
♥ I have a very developed chocobo obsession at the moment
♥ this website is made of all kinds of awesome

senna.matronic@gmail.com — Sat, 31 May 2008 04:10:44 GMT

I am totally in Japan. Check out facebook for many many photos :)

senna.matronic@gmail.com — Sat, 10 May 2008 19:52:20 GMT

I completed Portal ^_^ it is awesome.

I'm also having a relapse of the almightly sleeping disease where I wake up at 4pm and can't fall asleep until 7/8am.

Maybe the two things are connected?

I am also having babies over sorting out my student loan/ accomadation/ life.

senna.matronic@gmail.com — Tue, 06 May 2008 20:28:29 GMT

The two minutes I manage to pry myself away from my PS3 to write that last entry prompted me to announce that I got back into Uni :D yay! That was quite important news I forgot... *blush*

senna.matronic@gmail.com — Tue, 06 May 2008 20:26:41 GMT

The Orange Box came.

Must play constantly.

Never leave house again.

senna.matronic@gmail.com — Tue, 06 May 2008 00:02:02 GMT

I keep cutting off bits of my hair. It's gone really dry since the "oh I'm a brunette... oh wait let's get out the bleach... oh wait I'll go red-head for a bit..". I'm sure it's getting unnerved by the spare bleach satchet I still have in my bathroom.

Also the back is still blonde I only noticed last week ^_^ so it'll have to have a another round of dye anyway. Hahaha.

Ummmmmmmmmmm also I may have bought this. And I ordered the Orange Box :( it has not come :( maybe because today is bank holidaiz?

senna.matronic@gmail.com — Sun, 04 May 2008 21:10:59 GMT

BORIS JOHNSON FOR MAYOR OF LONDON WTFWTFWTFWTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I have to live there for three years :( at least :(

I just get these images of John Simm as The Master in Doctor Who when he's the prime minister and running around playing Scissor Sisters in the aircraft carrier and making clown faces and zipping up his mouth and shit... that's the closest image I can get in my mind of what's to come.

There are some unsatisfying rumours about a Half-Life movie floating around...

senna.matronic@gmail.com — Sun, 27 Apr 2008 16:24:37 GMT

Can we please have a Half-Life movie and please can Robert Downey Jr be Freeman?

When it comes down to it this is mostly because my ideal man would be some unconventional male nerdy type, with rebellious tendancies. But it also stems back to the fact that both of these men remind me of my A Level English teacher, who I was rrraaather in love with.

BUT if this movie was done right it would be the complete epitomy of awesome, and Robert Downey Jr is at least a good actor. I've seen too many people say Tom Cruise could be Freeman :( And Ed Norton does NOT look like Gordon. Gordon is chiselled.

senna.matronic@gmail.com — Fri, 18 Apr 2008 21:00:57 GMT

I pledge my soul to the religion that is Buffy.

I got the whole series on DVD a few months ago, and I re-watched it...

Am I seeing something that isn't there, or was this show a) extremely witty and clever b) made coherent social commentary c) promoted all the right things and not the wrong things and d) was insanely funny, but also intensely moving at times?

I watched the seasons in a very funny order something like 5,2,6,4,7,1,3... and thinking about it that would be a very different spin on the way you would view the series. For example, I can see my view of the character of Buffy was very incomplete, having viewed episodes such as The Gift and Chose without the reference of episodes such as Anne and Prophecy Girl. I was also as a result much more pro-Spike than most people, and pro-Tara.

I'm not going to try and get intellectual and de-construct it or anything, because firstly I can't, and secondly I might sound like a twat. At the end of the day it was an action program designed to entertain. But I can't help have so much respect for a show, that at the very least promoted women, and gay people.

Anyone else a Buffy fan? Dicuss....

senna.matronic@gmail.com — Thu, 17 Apr 2008 21:05:19 GMT

Yes, which clearly makes me a crazy woman from Mars. blah. blah.

senna.matronic@gmail.com — Thu, 17 Apr 2008 20:49:13 GMT

The amount that this journal is just like dedicated to random shit is ~~unbelievable~~ believable considering it's me.

I left my job. So my life is now not going to consist of me bitching about working in a shop. I'm gonna return to spending my days planning possible/ non-possible travelling.

Outline of probable plan: 2 weeks in Tokyo with Claire. A few days on my own. 2 Weeks with Zhongjie, take shinkansen through Kansai, to Fukuoka, and then back. A few more days on my own, maybe spend time with SOAS-y peoples. Then 3 weeks with host family. Then come back (boo.).

senna.matronic@gmail.com — Tue, 01 Apr 2008 20:16:00 GMT

I applied for this and I think I was successful ^_^

Today was reeeeealleh sunny and nice!

I'm going to the doctor about my restart tomorrow finally.

Things are nice atm :)