Half-Life 2 Episode 2 = teh awesome :) Now I'm going to sit here and have a tantrum until episode 3 comes out ^_^

Random life events:

♥ I might be going to India
♥ This is dependent on me getting money I am owed (long story)
♥ I got refused student housing
♥ this seems very unfair after they promised me a new start at uni, and I couldn't help missing the deadline as it was the uni that wanted an application from me, and they then took a while deciding
♥ so I'm going to phone/ email people in a restrained/ polite/ angry English way using phrases like "this is unacceptable" and "regrettably I must inform you" ^_^
♥ did I mention Zhongjie moved out? Not in a breaking up kind of way, I just needed the space
♥ Japan was awesome
♥ my parents NEED to split up
♥ my chocobo plush came :D
♥ I have a package waiting at the post office - I hope it is my chocobo tshirt :D
♥ I have a very developed chocobo obsession at the moment
♥ this website is made of all kinds of awesome

I watched Heathers yesterday which reminded me that it is possible one of the best movies evar. Maybe because this is because I am a little bit fucked up.

In other news my soul was stolen by Dragon Quest. I'm 40+ hours and only about half way through.

Recently has been funny because my mum got all excited about her DS Lite last month, and she went "crazy" this week and bought herself an Ipod. It's very sweet to watch her discover the 21st centuary finally :) SHe plays the DS on the way to work, and the Ipod on the way back.

Valentine's Day was really good, and stuff has generally better with us recently. Even with two Uni rejections for Zhonje stuff is ok, and we're excited about living together next year. He chose the most perfect restaurant and I just felt really pretty because I wore this super fandabby skirt I got from ebay. heh. Our one year anniversay we spent at this restaurant we used to go to a lot before we were going out. It's like where everyone used to go last year, and it was nice to revisit somewhere from "the past" so to speak.

My work is a bit rubbish atm. I finally got set hours, but I didn't get to see them until a couple of days ago, and I already planned to go to Durham from tomorrow until Monday. This only clashes with work on the Monday, but they're still being a bit iffy. I didn't get to see my manager yesterday so I had to tell him by word of mouth that I wasn't going to turn up. I'm worried when I go in Tuesday there'll be an awkward/ anger momemt.... This seems unfair with the retrospect that I've done like 50+ hours unpaid overtime.

I was meant to visit my friends from Uni today, but they didn't seem to bothered so I decided not to go in the end. Yes, pinnacle of maturity I am. Maybe next time if I contact them better and arrange something it will work out. It just made me a bit depressed. I guess they have school work and I don't.

I got sort of offered some modelling. Zhongjie said he thought I'd be really good, but I guess he has to say that! ^_^ It is a dilema as I like art type stuff and burlesque and things like that, but not cunty fashion modelling. I am going to think about it. Some extra momey would be nice!

Zomg Ricky Gervias used to be really hot in the 80s I discovered today!

I am feeling better after my slight freak-out on Thursday. I was missing SOAS and scared that I would lose Zhongjie if I didn't go back to Uni in September.

Anyway, we had a really nice chat last night. Unfortunately, Zhongjie didn't get into one of his unis, although it was the only non-London one. I am slightly pleased about that in a selfish way. If he had gone there I feel it's likely we would not have stayed together.

I was still worried that if I stayed at home for next year while he was at Uni in London things might still have been hard. But I do feel that I need more time before I go back. But I'm worried that I'll lose touch with my uni friends.

Zhongjie proposed a really good idea. An idea that even my mum agreed too ^_^ Which, bless her, is rare for something we propose to her. If Zhongjie gets into uni he'll rent private accommodation, i.e. a small flat in London (it's suprising how cheap this can be if you know where to look) and I'll live with him. I'll leave my current job and find somewhere similar in London, e.g. like in Tottenham Court Road. I'll be earning at London rates so I'll be able to afford the rent and living expenses. I can visit my friends from uni too! It'd be a great way to acclimatise back into my London life without the problems I had before. I could go back to uni the next year, live in the same flat with Zhongjie, having earned some money.

Even if Zhongje doesn't go to uni this September we think we might do this anyway and both work. I love my mum, but living at home is stressful and I'm too old really to be leading this life. I need the support for the moment after the problems I had at uni, but I know I need to take responsibility. I want too.